I claimed to be a lady but they say I don't look like one. Not because I'm immature nor I entertained myslef with pointless thoughts BUT simply because I am petite and I admit that I'm really C-U-T-E..(lolz!!! :))Well, I'm an IT student, a thoughtful friend, a sweet girlfriend and a loving daughter.I want to be courageous enough to take risks and conquer my limitations.
It was an honest confrontation that happened this afternoon. My "—-" in the institution told me that the ‘grace’ she knew three years ago has changed, not into a better individual but she sees me becoming worst. She reasoned that I’ve been too close to them and get very familiar with them and she sees me losing the gap that I should have with them. She’s partly right. I believe so. Well, those were the most painful words I heard for so long now. Maybe the truth spanked me and it really hurts—it really did
. It doesn’t just end up with that scene but she extensively have shown to me how she enfavor this someone over me. Have you ever felt to be an outcast in the group? That is how I felt-that is how she made me feel.
I silently thank her in my heart because she has awakened me to have time to assess more of myself, my acts and everything in me. I went home having that painful feeling. My mind wandered miles and miles away, assessing the past and present things I’ve done. And I came up with this realization. …
I realized that scene is intended for me to keep track of what I’ve been doing with the gift of life God had given me. Am I being rude to others? Am I being too gentle? Thoughts of like this and that. I knew I could never please everyone because in the very first place I don’t live to please anybody. I do things to please only one—and that is GOD. I live my life as if there’s no more tomorrow. I live my life the way I want it to be because I want myself to be happy. And maybe because of that reason I unexpectedly became very self-conceited. I knew I shouldn’t live up with the standards of other people but I have to adjust and adapt because I am in a society and I have to interact with them. I knew of unruly things she has done but I am not in the position (’i'll NEVER be in that position’) to throw any judgments to her. And so I focused to myself. Atleast judging or assessing myself is within the bounds of my freedom. The pain in fact still lingers in me at this very moment. A pain of others’ misconception and maybe a pain driven by my own. I thank God for this extraordinary things that happened to me this day because I learned that the more I should value the people who believes in me, the more that I should value myself and above all, the more that I should value my God!
This year’s Mr. and Ms. Intramurals 2007 will be held in UIC Auditorium this coming August 31, 2007 Friday. Wow and that is three nights from now. The theme falls under Filipiniana since the month of August is the official Buwan ng Wika. In this coronation night, the candidates will showcase a different but very wonderful dresses and culture of Filipinos. They have to carry out the smiles of true Filipinos. This theme is infact wholy different from the previous and prominent beauty pageants that you’ll ever witness. Folks, culture of the Filipinos will be showcased this coming coronation night. This is indeed a challenge for the organizers to prove especially to young audiences (the students) that we have to revive the Filipiniana days and its worth the time to witness the said event.
Well, good luck for all the candidates especially the candidates of the ITE Program! God bless!
…is the most hated feeling that I would ever feel. I swore to myself that I won’t get mad anymore but tonight I failed. I acted to rude like a wild animal that no one could ever tamed. I can’t get rid of this feeling of being tired dealing with this somebody. I think that I could never have peace if she’ll be staying with me the rest of my life. I just don’t know anymore how will I deal with her. Maybe I’m too kind because she often end up abusing that kindness- and - if I act rude to her I can’t win over her because she fights back and I often end up as a loser and could no longer hold on my temper. I hate myself being like this. I hate myself having this hatred. Oh God, I am so sorry of how I feel tonight. I am really very sorry.
This year’s Intramurals in UIC is fast approaching - really fast because it will be on Monday of next week, Sept.3. I’ll be having three events this year and these include chess, dramatic dialogue and folkdance. I just don’t know why Mr. Barrios chose me to join dramatic dialogue-lolz! I have no idea but I’ll just accept the challenge..Remember, I love to take risk and conquer my limitations…Geez, once in a lifetime "pakaulaw"…lolz!
This day is a very "werrrlah" day. We are bombarded with a lot of tasks and document submission to meet. Our seemingly unending document revision in Systems Analysis and Design, a business concept for our Technopreneurship subject, a brain stirring math problems in Probability and Statistics, and not to mention our exams this week. Geez, whatta busy schedule. I have no choice but to get in the flow and be efficient with the responsibilities assigned to me. I just hope and pray that I’ll continue to be of good health so that I’ll remain physically capable to do all of these challenges thrown to me.
Well the best of luck and may God bless the Seniors for our endeavors, the ITE Program for this upcoming Intramurals—go for the GOLD!!!
